So when I was little (and naïve), I was really good friends with this one chick. We were BFFs (at least, until she went and told her parents that I called her pregnant and then we weren’t allowed to chill anymore. For the record, I had NO idea what pregnant even meant at that time and I most certainly did not call her that!)
Anyway, she had a birthday, as people do. And a party for it, also as kids do. I couldn’t find anything to get her for her birthday,
My mum was really busy that week, so we didn’t end up having the time to get her a birthday present. Being the wonderful person that I am, I didn’t want to go empty-handed. When I love I love fiercely, and I didn’t want my bestie to think that I was a shitty friend. So I put all my favourite pencils together and proudly took them to show my mother. They were really cool – holographic and stuff. A couple of them were kind of scratched up and about halfway to being finished, but I had the best of intentions. I showed my mum and she was admonishing to say the least, telling me I couldn’t possibly go to her party and present her with that. But I was convinced that it would be the perfect present, and even at a young age, when I wanted something I went after it and nothing would stand in my way. So determined little me wrapped them in blue tissue paper and hid them about my person.
When it was present-opening time, I drew them out with a flourish and gave them to her. She looked at the crumpled blue tissue paper for a few seconds, and then opened it slowly. Pulling out the bundle of pencils, she had a not-so-impressed look on her face, to say the least. Everyone else tittered and/or gave me disgusted looks, and that was definitely the first time I ever had that terrible heavy-as-hell-stone-in-the-pit-of-your-stomach feeling. Little crushed me just stood there for what felt like an eternity. Brb. I think I need to deal with my ptsd symptoms.
Back. If Friend Sped had witnessed the event, she would have said Aw, bless! which would probably have helped to make me feel a little bit better, but she wasn’t.